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'him' 2.sx 3.liwen 4. amelia 5.rachel ( senior ) 6. joy lau found out, lucky... 6 ppl only. hope no more ppl will find out who that ' him ' is...<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/I%20DUN%20LIKE%20NESEL%20N%20DUN%20HATE%20CRYSTAL%20AT%20ALL">I DUN LIKE NESEL N DUN HATE CRYSTAL AT ALL</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>11:30 AM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> <div class=head><p align="right"> <font size=2><font face="verdana"><u>Saturday, August 15, 2009</u></font></font> <br><p align="left"><div style="clear:both;"></div>hais...everyday is getting worser n worser...today, y** w** said...ok not exactly said but in the chatbox at facebook, i ask him if he got go my blog anot den he no ans so i put onemore question den all a sudden he say' can u stop disturbing me' den he continue saying 'its fucking irritating' den i was like ... nth say. he became very cold towards me after i told him i like ***** den i ans' ok...' i was like so shock, nobody had did this to me before, if they did they will NEVER dare to say my name so i can pretend its not me but i knew it was me. i dun noe wad happened...i think somebody told him something...but if he was ***** i would hav cried. the ppl in my sch is seriously getting on my nerves, they keep saying me den at home i wan play com awhile oso cannot den my cousin so guailan den ***** oso like dun care me dun care me like that im such a sore loser<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/nobody%20had%20did%20this%20to%20me%20before......">nobody had did this to me before......</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>8:43 AM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> <div class=head><p align="right"> <font size=2><font face="verdana"><u>Friday, August 14, 2009</u></font></font> <br><p align="left"><div style="clear:both;"></div>im such a loser, not good in sports, not gd in studies...IM NOT GD IN ANYTHING!!!but now i jus wan to noe wat ***** is thinking about...does he like me? definitely no. y do i keep seeing him? if he does not like me den who does he like? ive nvr gave him eye contact before n ive nvr even tok to him before. im not close to him...so there is no chance for us to b together...we only hav a few months left to b together if we didnt go to the same sch in the same class den he COMFIRM will noe other girls n like them n then totally forget me in his life seeing as im nth to him... n that would b the most hardest n heart shattering thing to watch... LUCK HAS NOT BEEN TREATING ME WELL...<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/he%20loves%20me%20he%20loves%20me%20not%20he%20loves%20me...">he loves me he loves me not he loves me...</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>9:20 AM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> <div class=head><p align="right"> <font size=2><font face="verdana"><u>Thursday, August 13, 2009</u></font></font> <br><p align="left"><div style="clear:both;"></div>im hated n disliked...which is the same in someways. ***** dun like me, THEY hate me, kelly n yuxin n all the ppl that did not believe me becos of that incident hates me, its like suddenly alot ppl dun like me. before this only rochelle dun like me n the whole class girls all my frens now like i entered another world...is there still anything that can go wrong??? ppl treating me coldly in sch, they keep guailan lorh but then im not so narrow minded n immature to retaliate. i only scold them back in my mind den smirk alittle cos i find them foolish, sometimes i wishi can quickly get out of this sch, cos the ppl here very...duno how to describe...unreasonable. they wan noe something then they either guess guess den nvr go find out the truth den go re shi xin fei or they force u to tell them, den u wan noe their thing they wont tell. i mean, where got this kind of fren one? still say wad bestfren /gdfren/close fren, piece of crap only lah hor. they can becos u laugh at them abit thing, very minor one, den dun fren u. aiyah jus heck care them lah, jus play along with the rythem, wait them go sec sch c wad happen n wait for retribution. btw dun hav them i wont die ( but i'll b half dead without *****) i still got yu see n yu ning. they r seriously gd frens they give u a listening ear n if u feel sad they will like'u wan chips?' or ' let u play lah(the guitar hero)' or they try to make u laugh ( which is really efffective, one or two time can liao). n we hav almos similar thots so we get together well. they wont really mind about alot of thing so we keep our frenship real well. not like the ppl in my sch... jus so long as frens will yi ren rang yi bu n are BROAD minded frenship can b kept long n maybe even forever<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/this%20bitterness%20will%20b%20shortliven%20once%20i%20leave%20this%20sch%20n%20find%20new%20frens%20that%20r%20more%20mature">this bitterness will b shortliven once i leave this sch n find new frens that r more mature</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>7:41 AM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> <div class=head><p align="right"> <font size=2><font face="verdana"><u>Wednesday, August 12, 2009</u></font></font> <br><p align="left"><div style="clear:both;"></div>hais...wheres my prince charming...? very sian nowadays but i will nvr show my emotions...i envy n admire ppl who hav ppl that like them, even if theres only one person that like u it still proves that u r attractive in ur own way but now the prob is that not even A SINGLE person like me... am i really ugly? i dun get it but in this sch ppl only like one another for their looks...didnt they noe that wat matters most is the HEART ? i believe that nth can b more powerful n important than TRUE LOVE. but somehow ppl jus dun get it.but...hais...i duno...its like everything is opposing me, love, luck n all. combine them its equal to reality. im not gd in anything, my studies r not gd nobody likes me everything is dumping me...if somebody is bullying me then nobody would care at most they tell the teacher. if there r many ppl like this in the world...that would be a catastrophe, i mean its not as in the earth exploding or anything, its not physical catastrophe. frens help each other when either one of them is getting bullied but in my sch this kind of ppl dun even exist...they jus laugh along with the bully, all they noe is to tok behind each other's back n hav secrets among each other this proves that theres no mutual trust between each other, if u ask them y they will say ~i scared u tell so n so, ur mouth so big u comfirm will tell so n so one lorh, so n so IS UR BEST FREN WADDD.~ this wad happen when we dun share secrets between close frens, they will get angry or lealous of one another n then start the thing called~fren for 3 min not fren for 10 hrs~ do u think this sort of fren is gd?<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/my%20sch%20is%20filled%20with%20immature%20n%20narrow-minded%20ppl">my sch is filled with immature n narrow-minded ppl</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>7:42 AM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> <div class=head><p align="right"> <font size=2><font face="verdana"><u>Friday, August 7, 2009</u></font></font> <br><p align="left"><div style="clear:both;"></div>y is eveybody being so mean 2 me? in sch kelly n all the anti-yukis plus amelia call me bitch, go home liao my sis call me bitch. i alrdy very gd nvr scold back cos i dun wan to hav mouth fight, but nobody seems to understand. my thermometer cover when left on table ends on the floor later, same goes to my bag, at 1st it wad on my chair den it ended on the floor. do u all think it is very funny? i doubt that u all hav been bullied before, do u noe wat it feels like? hav anybody tried hotcakes made from ur own tears? is being nice to someone that hard? do u noe how hopelessness feels like? its undescribable, the pain the sadness. im trying so hard to keep frenship but in the end who gets hurt? ME! y are u all doing this to me? all u noe is to ignore me, exclude me as much as possible, pulling pranks, calling me names n bullying me. n yet did i complain or even said anything? no! hav all these thing happen 2 u all before? i highly doubt that. im trying like crazy to b nice to all of u but wad did i get in return? getting bullied. being nice to all of u doesnt mean u can take advantage of me, but alas im trying to tolerate it which is driving me up the wall, whenever anybody nids help i stuck up 4 them, but when it is my turn, in the most crucial moment, did anybody help me ? no. they jus left me there. im like a toy , u all take me when u nid help n abandon mee when u dont nid me anymore. u're all using me n i dont like it. its fine if u wan to b all sarcastic NOW, but oneday u will understand the situation but by then im not there anymore...im really sry if that happen but u hav to noe wat it feels like to b able to understand how painful it is 4 mee<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/im%20like%20a%20toy...">im like a toy...</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>8:54 AM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> <div class=head><p align="right"> <font size=2><font face="verdana"><u>Thursday, August 6, 2009</u></font></font> <br><p align="left"><div style="clear:both;"></div>haha yesterday mdm ang nvr come, i now in I.T lab. BTW i was a lucky gal yesterday thx 2 sx's lucky seat. i saw ***** EXACTLY 10 TIMES!!! wow n it is seriously accidentally by the time i noe i was going to see him it was too late...i alrdy walk pass him. ITS LIKE HE IS EVERYWHERE!!! den mdm wong took over the lesson den half way thru HE WENT INTO MY CLASSSS!!!! i wasn't facing the door i was facing amelia when all of a sudden amelia gave me that 'wow yuki ***** wor' face den i turn to the door HE WAS THERE!!!!! my face was soo damn red. den at recess i buy water i thot it was his fren sitting at the the table , so i walk pass den after i walk pass den i realise it was him see wad i mean ? over 10 times 7 times like that!!! anw today i wore camp t-shirt (RED) n my only pair of white bottom which is a short. i think alot ppl thinks that i very act.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p class="blogger-labels">Labels: <a rel='tag' href="http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/search/label/where%20ever%20i%20am%20he%20is%20there%20or%20just%20nearby">where ever i am he is there or just nearby</a></p></font> <br> <br> <p align=right> <br><i></i><br> <u>6:13 PM</u></p></font> <center>>>></center></font> </font></font> </font></p> </p> </div> </div> <div id="tagboard" style="display:none"> <div align=right><font size=3></font><br><br> <div align="center">  <div id="cboxdiv" style="text-align: center; line-height: 0"> <div><iframe frameborder="0" width="200" height="305" src="http://www6.cbox.ws/box/?boxid=240225&boxtag=gsvjda&sec=main" marginheight="2" marginwidth="2" scrolling="auto" allowtransparency="yes" name="cboxmain" style="border:#DBE2ED 1px solid;" id="cboxmain"></iframe></div> <div><iframe frameborder="0" width="200" height="75" src="http://www6.cbox.ws/box/?boxid=240225&boxtag=gsvjda&sec=form" marginheight="2" marginwidth="2" scrolling="no" allowtransparency="yes" name="cboxform" style="border:#DBE2ED 1px solid;border-top:0px" id="cboxform"></iframe></div> </div>  </div> </div> <div id="links" style="display:none"> <div align=right><font size=3></font><br> <a href="http://290409tdily.blogspot.com">Amelia</a><br> <a href="http://kerstin-ong.blogspot.com">Kerstin</a><br> <a href="http://deadluver-heartalone.blogspot.com">nobody</a><br> <a href="http://th-lala-land.blogspot.com">Kelly</a><br> <a href="http://mudpie-donut.blogspot.com">Ziyun</a><br> <a href="http://fr0zenxtears.blogspot.com">DESIGNER</a><br> <a href="http://ong-sixuan.blogspot.com">Sixuan</a><br> <a href="http://junjielol.blogspot.com">JJ</a><br> <a href="http://lolipopjx.blogspot.com">jiaxuan</a><br> <a href="http://littlepaw4dogs.blogspot.com">rochelle</a><br> <a href="http://happygirl2708.blogspot.com">vivian</a><br> <a href="http://6h-2009.blogspot.com">6H</a><br> <a href="http://fond-memories-not-forgotten.blogspot.com">joylau</a><br> <a href="http://deep-simplicityy.blogspot.com">joylim</a><br> <a href="http://th-nextpage.blogspot.com">debbie</a><br> <br><p> <u>Archives</u><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2008/01/'><b>January 2008</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2008/02/'><b>February 2008</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2008/03/'><b>March 2008</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2008/05/'><b>May 2008</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2008/06/'><b>June 2008</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2008/10/'><b>October 2008</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2009/01/'><b>January 2009</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2009/06/'><b>June 2009</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2009/07/'><b>July 2009</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2009/08/'><b>August 2009</b></a><br> • <a href='http://everythingfaded.blogspot.com/2009/12/'><b>December 2009</b></a><br> <br> </div></div> </div></body></html> </html>